A shocking revelation re: notes and books

Never Say Never

I'm almost certain my jaw hit the floor when I heard one of my teachers* say that he was getting rid of all of his notes from school.

It shocked me so much that I remember the moment perfectly, even though it was more than 10 years ago.

I thought he was batshit crazy.

Throwing away thousands of dollars' worth of notes? Disposing of precious herbal wisdom? What could he possibly have been thinking?

I remember knowing with certainty that I would never do such a thing.

Which naturally leads us to my next point: I got rid of all of my notes a few weeks ago.

Yes. All of my notes from school. Gone. ​

That would be notes from 4+ years of graduate school, hundreds of amazing lectures from people I'll probably never hear speak in person again. Pearls of other people's wisdom that only come from experience and deep familiarity with the field. Graded papers and assignments that I poured my heart into.

Twenty five or thirty notebooks and binders filled with notes from classes that I paid dearly to attend now grace the recycling bin or are destined to be cut up, colored on and otherwise mangled by my children.

In case you aren't horrified yet, I also purged more than half of my reference books.

Why?

It was time. I haven't opened most of them for years. I've been carrying them around like a security blanket, reassured to have them nearby "in case I need them."

I don't need them.

I've been in practice for well over a decade. I know where and from whom to seek help if I need it and that doesn't involve my notes from 2002.

In school, you rely on teachers as you learn to develop your own opinions and think more critically. I realized that I have more experience now than many of those teachers did when they taught me. I realized that some of them, even at the time they were teaching, hadn't seen a client or engaged in active research in 10 years. Some rely on paradigms that now make no sense to me. Some said things that are incorrect. Some said things that were brilliant and amazing and clear and helpful, things that I hope I never forget.

All of them served a purpose at the time. I wouldn't trade any of these experiences for other ones. I couldn't be here now, doing I job I love, without these teachers and their classes.

Looking back, though, I see that the lessons I still have to gain from those experiences don't involve the specific pieces of data each teacher conveyed. The most important things I learned - and continue to learn - involve how to analyze and understand the information, how to think about and theorize and find patterns and meaning, how to contextualize. You can't find that in my notes and books. It comes from experience.

I've been meaning to purge all of this for a few years now, and never could quite follow through with it. When the time was right, though, it wasn't hard at all.

I don't feel a single twinge of regret.


* James Snow, in case you're curious

Camille

Hi there. I’m Camille. I’m an associate professor at the Maryland University of Integrative Health, where I teach physiology and pathophysiology. I’m also a licensed nutritionist, specializing in fertility and reproductive health. (I’m not taking any new clients!) Lastly but not leastly, I’m a mom, a gardener and a really horrible housekeeper.

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